on monday,

i saw one of the most beautiful sunsets ever in my life, and i did not have my camera with me.

and that taught me that some events are meant to be enjoyed with the naked eye, rather than through a viewfinder of a camera.

I saw the sunset from the moment the hint of orange flames started warming up the belly of the clouds, until the moment the sun went out of sight and made the clouds turn sad and gray. Would have never sat through it at all if I’ve never shot previous sunsets before.

Half the time the world is ending and everyone brushes past sunsets like these without even glancing at the heavens. Finally, I understand why we live in a dying world.

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why do you want to kill me.

hahahaha.

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HEHEHEHE

and the monster arrives. the bench, i mean.

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the right

Everything in my life is falling into place. A huge relief today after the doctor’s, pigmentation he said.

National service will commence in about 2 months, Phuket in exactly a month & of course the best one of all; school will start in 2 years. In retrospect, applying for the course was not a bad move at all.

In fact, being accepted for university education has brought alot of meaning to life. I keep pushing myself towards this phantom objective, this goal of being someone great in the future. And that is why I’ve continued accepting jobs from clients whom I know will turn my life inside out and push my limits to the brink. At the end of the day, they actually make you better than you already are.

I told myself the other day that I will only start turning down clients when I get too obsessed with work. It’s only for my own good. But someone has got to be there to tell me, because when the time comes, I won’t even know. Working for yourself is an experience everyone should try. Brings out a whole different person in you. I don’t see myself shadowing a big shot in the office in the near future, even though that’s the exact thing you need to do to get forward. But no, I do not see myself doing that.

Now, now. Deep.

I’ve been neglecting Sally for about a month. But I’ll find the time to spend with her, I need to start coming up with ideas for personal work again. The portfolio is getting old, and it needs updating. The brain too is getting old, and I need to fulfill its wish to create paintings. Visual creature, my brain is. The right, the right brain.

Now, now.

This has to be the longest break I’ve had from anything, especially school. Apart from work, I’ve been filling out my days and skipping through them pretty quickly. But really, I would rather have time crawl and spend time with you, rather than skipping through my days like this. Albeit corny, it’s really what I want to do. But you’ll never get it, because you’ll never find out. Maybe it’s time for someone new, maybe I’ll find another you.

Now, now.

And there you have it shy creatures, a proper update. Shy creatures. heh.

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watch.

wherever i go, whatever i do, i wonder where i am in my relationship to you.

friday night saw a bunch of us head to Joo Chiat to watch where the light is on a huge screen. it was worth every second.

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